A Prologue

I can’t stop running. They’ll catch me. They’ll catch me.

I don’t know where I’m going. I’ve never been here before. For all I know, I could be running straight into the worst thing in all the universe, but I can’t stop running. I can’t stop running. If I stop, they’ll get me. They’ll drag me back there. And I can’t go back there, not after what I saw them do. What if they did that to me too? What if they did it to everyone else I loved?

How have they managed to deceive everyone for so long? Or are they not deceiving them? Does everyone already know? Do they allow it? How could they allow it? It isn’t right. It’s terrible. It can’t be allowed, it can’t be known. What am I going to do? Where will I go? I can’t go back. I can’t let them catch me. What will I do if they catch me? I know now what they want me to do, but I won’t do it. They can’t make me. But only if they don’t catch me. If they catch me, they can make me do anything. I know that. I have to keep on running. I have to run.

Help me! I can’t run much longer! Please! I can’t do it anymore! But I have to. I can’t stop. I can’t stop, I can’t continue. Help me!

They’re getting closer. They know that I can’t keep on running forever, even being what I am. They know that it’s bearing me down. They know everything. They won’t let me go. Not if they catch me again.

I can hear them! They tell me that I don’t understand.

I do understand! I understand too well. I know what they’re doing, now. I know everything that they want me to do. I know why they did what they just did. They don’t care! They don’t care! They aren’t even human. They can’t have hearts, can they? They don’t even seem alive. But I know who they are, and I can’t run from them forever. I can’t stop! I can’t. But I can’t go on.

They’ll catch me. They can’t catch me! Don’t let them catch me, please!

They know that there isn’t anywhere I can go. They’ll take me back. They’ll make me watch it again. They know that they can control me. No, no. I’m stronger than they are. I can save myself! I have to! I can’t stop running.

I can’t stop running.

I’m trapped. I’m trapped. I don’t have anywhere to go. They’re right behind me. I can hear them, I can feel them, I can sense them. They have caught me. I have to escape. I have to give up. I can’t let them have me! There is nothing I can do. I will not let them take me! I am stronger than they are! I am! I have to give up. I can’t run anymore. They have caught me. I have to. . . give up.

I will lock myself up. They can’t get me. I’m giving up. . .

A battle rages within my own soul. I am two different people, each with opposing wills. Which one is stronger? I don’t know. But I can’t let them win, no matter how much my other half wants to give in. I know that I am a slave to their wills. I cannot fight that, not now. But a time will come. I have to fight them. But I am too weak now. So I will lock my heart deep inside of myself. Bury it under layers and layers of what they want to see from me. I will save myself from myself. I will hide the thoughts that would betray me and keep them for a day in the future. I will give in to my other self to save myself.

From this moment on, I am dead. I am only one part of myself. I am only a shadow. But I will hide, and when the time is right, I will return.

I will wait. And I will triumph.



Okay. . .

This is a prologue to something I am kind of working on right now, and if it is utterly confusing, that's because it's supposed to be. You really aren't supposed to understand what is going on at all, and it is supposed to sound really odd. So, yeah, there's my latest bit of work.